7.22.2010

Coping

This has been a stressful week. A rough one. One that requires the likes of turning off your phone, liquid lunches, and Twitter venting. The kind where you throw your hands up and scream to the heavens, "What the hell did I do to you and can I take it back?"
I've managed to spare a few seconds here and there to read a few blogs, but that's been it. Of course, I'm thinking if I hadn't done that, I might not have any hair left.
Projects have been flying my direction at lightening speed. My once organized wall of job folders has since spilled onto the floor, the desk and my new little bookcase.
I want calm.
I want to read a book.
I want to got get my haircut on my lunch break.
But, I just don't have time for any of that. Right now, all I have time for is coping. Just dealing with the chaos. And by 'dealing,' I mean sucking it up.
OK, maybe I'm fibbing a bit. Sucking it up usually entails being an adult. And honestly, my actions have been far from that. I've cried. I've lashed out. I've even drowned my sorrows in not one, but two chocolatey vending machine treats.
But I've not felt the need to hide under my desk.
Yet.
Luckily, I'm not the only one who seeks the comfort and safety that only the underneath of a desk can provide.
Audreya does it too.
Actually, she was there yesterday. Eventually coaxed out by her boss.
I got caught once, under my desk.
Well, technically, I wasn't under the desk, but I was sitting on the floor, in front of it. Of course, a C-level person in the company chose that moment to walk by. And, being that I was at the point of sitting on the floor, I was also at a very vulnerable, and therefore truthful place. So when he asked what I was doing, I plainly replied, "Hiding from my email."
I of course couldn't tell him who in the company had sent me into such a tailspin. But this person had done it once before. And I'm sure will do it once again.
But that's life. We all find different ways to cope with what's going on in our lives. Whether we turn to anger or tears. Whether we choose to indulge ourselves in other ways. Or simply to walk away and ignore it all.
What are you dealing with right now? How do you cope?

6 comments:

  1. When my insane behavior becomes the rationale for your own behavior, you've clearly gone round the bend! :-)

    I think we both just need a vacation. I have to wait until October. Boo.

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  2. Cope? Hmm, well I don't have much to really worry me right now but when I did...well I usually would leave the office and call someone. Sometimes going to get a coffee or wandering through Anthro. But generally, I would just avoid it all together (i.e. leave early). I'm all about denial.

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  3. I feel the same at work sometimes too. Blech. That is one reason I love my job, the breaks we get to recharge!

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  4. I wish I could say that I do something positive and constructive, like, doing laundry or going for a good run (though, I don't believe there is any such thing as a GOOD run), but my coping mechanism is this: napping.

    I don't solve anything and the irksome problem never goes away while I'm doing it... but napping sure makes me happy.

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  5. I'm starting to think that I don't cope so much as ignore. Coping implies recognizing that there's a problem.

    I'm not sure I'm there.

    But, for the times that I CAN cope with my reality, it usually involves KAT and martinis. Lately, it involves KAT and non-alcoholic martinis and shopping.

    And now I want to read a book and get my hair cut...

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  6. I've had those weeks. Had a bit of one last week, although I never actually hid. Spent an evening sobbing, but that's another matter.

    Hope this one is going much better!

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