No excuses

I feel like I'm having a crisis of self. It's a small one, mind you, but a crisis none the less.
All my life I've strongly felt that the only person I could rely on was me.
Not my friends. Not my dad. Not my sisters. And surely not my mother. It was just me. For as long as I can remember.
My family and a few friends have served as road blocks. They were the things keeping me from doing what I wanted, what I truly needed to be doing.
And yet now, I feel that the only person in my way is me.
Something happened and I looked up to see the roadblocks were just facades. Thrown in my way time and time again.
I am my own worst enemy.
I am my worst critic. Overly harsh about my abilities. My looks. My life.
The saddest part is that I am suddenly acutely aware that I am what is keeping me from success. Not circumstances. Not other people. Not 'if I could just...' But me.
And that is a scary, scary fact.
So no more excuses. No more dragging my feet. No more blaming. And definitely no more road blocks.
I have an obnoxious drive to be successful and I'm going to stop getting in my own way. I welcome back my over-planning. With open arms I embrace late nights, early mornings and pushing myself when I feel like stopping.
I've done this before. I can do it again.


  1. Don't beat yourself up. Focus on the positive stuff. You're strong, you're driven. You can accomplish what you want if you set your mind to it. Go get 'em, girl!

  2. Good for you! I am happy you found this place. I have been the same. Having only myself to rely on much of the time, I forgot how to let others help me. Fear of failure is also scary for me.

  3. Love this post - hope you come back to it again later and let us know how it's going.